Guranda's letters

Mother, and Son Lu,

She is thinking: How is my son there in Turkey.
He is so big now and so reserved
She is saying: Lu how are you? Are you okay?

He is thinking: oh she always says this.
She cares more about me then herself. It’s better if she would think so much about herself.

She is thinking: he never says what he feels. He always speaks with short sentences. He is like someone surrounded by the wall.

He is saying: I’m okay. How are you?

She is saying: well I’m ok.........(speaking)................after half an hour: Are u bored Lu? I’m talking so much.

He is thinking: well I’m not bored but could not understand most of it.
He is saying: of course not! It’s very interesting...... and what did he say?

She is thinking: it is so good that I have a son who can listen, for hours. He is very good.
She is saying: I am so proud of you, you are such a good boy, sorry a man
She is thinking, who is that girl who brought him tea to drink by the computer, someone likes him too much.
She is saying; Do you like any girls there Lu?

He is thinking: well there are lots of girls I like but have not decided yet.
He is saying: not really, there are not so many beautiful girls here, but some of them are really nice.
especially when they bring Tea/)))

She is thinking: is that good for him to fall in Love somewhere in Turkey? And after will have Turkish grandchildren.
She is saying. Don’t fall in love with a Turkish girl. You will be suffering living in different countries.
She is thinking. I don/t think I will be able to learn Turkish to speak with my own grandchildren. I am too lazy now

She is saying: And how is Mariana?

-Guranda & Luka-

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Letter to Love,

Love is dead. Sorry my dear, I tried to do my best to keep you alive, or may be you are not dead you just flied away from me, like a bird or some substance Forgive me I don’t know, how you looked like I only felt you. You probably were beautiful, because you made me beautiful or may be ugly, because you made me ugly. But you, Love, loved me and flied away, because you couldn't’t bear my pain any more, only we knew how it felt. The person I loved he never felt my pain, may be because he had his own and was too week to carry both. I don’t blame him. If he only knew how it felt he would never hurt me, I know that, because he is kind. This bird, the pair of mine, also flied to him, but somehow he was too busy with himself to notice what it was all about. He didn’t take it seriously, other things were more important. This bird didn’t bring him salvation. Unlike me he still has it but in a half dormant condition and that’s why she can’t fly and is still there… sleeping.
And I started to notice how beautiful is the sky and flowers all around. I even started to remember that this world is here for me with all its hidden wonders. Now I even think I don’t need anyone to be happy. If he doesn’t need me, I need myself and I can be happy with myself.
And what about him? How will he live? Who will smooth his pain? May be I don’t need to worry, he will find someone. May be I really don’t need to worry.

Guranda

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